I could make an equally compelling argument for being both an ultra 10x super ass kicker and a total loser. It depends on the day, really. I'm probably having an ass kicker week this week. It's difficult to be certain, as keeping the ups and downs from affecting you personally is a survival skill, and what happened this week is a factor of a bunch of shit I did months ago, and what I focus on today won't matter for months into the future. Because of this weird time distortion, the only way I can function personally is just showing up and going at a sustainable pace for a long, long time.

But it is very elon musk "don't believe in hope". If getting shit done was contingent on things working out according to plan I'd have quit years ago.